brumeier: (NoSo 2016)
Here I am, with a post full of belatedness.

Happy American Thanksgiving! Happy Birthday [ profile] elderwitty! Happy everything else I've missed since my last post. ::grins::

Things have not been going well, friends. My brother is going through a divorce, and not a nice, chill one like mine. He got booted from his house, so he's set up shop on my couch for the unforeseeable future. I love my brother, I do. But not every single day in my tiny apartment. He's also unemployed, so there hasn't been any help with things like groceries, although he's been doing some handyman things and a lot of cooking. (He cooked for me on Thanksgiving because I had to work.)

Even better is that his girlfriend also spends the weekends living on my couch. Too. Many. People. Seriously, my apartment is tiny.

The most immediate fallout from this situation is that my writing has dropped off to almost nothing. I have no quiet time. No alone time. My brother went visiting relatives this past weekend and told me to enjoy the solitude. Which is funny, because I worked all day Friday, was out of the house for my own holiday visiting all day Saturday, and then he was back on Sunday.

Needless to say I'm very worried about my Secret Santa deadline, which is December 7th. I've made almost no progress on it, unless you count restarting it about four or five times. Not good, not good, not good. If anyone has a direct line to the powers that be, please put in a good word for my brother. He needs a job and an apartment that isn't mine. Please and thank you!

But somewhere along the line I did find time to write, so here's my one thing:

Title: Dance With the Devil
Fandom: Stargate Atlantis
Pairing: McShep
Characters: John, Rodney
Warnings: Murder, dark character, description of a corpse

Prompt: Stargate: Atlantis, John Sheppard/Rodney McKay, John's the charismatic serial killer who's been terrorizing people all over [east/west coast/state/area] and Rodney's the FBI officer who's been chasing after him.
brumeier: (Stefon)
I'm not gonna lie. I hate working. I get zero fulfillment from it. First job isn't too bad. I get to sit on my butt all day and hang out on the computer. It's a bit stressful at the moment because of copious staff changes making it hard to know who is handling what these days, and because we're frantically trying to get ready for the start of school.

Second job. That's the one I wish I could flip off and walk away from. It's been a rough month there because we had one girl go back to school and one of the managers was fired, so we're down bodies. I've been working an extra shift each week, on top of the full-time job I'm already working, and it's killing me. I hate going there every single day that I have to. ::whines::

So with all the work, I haven't been feeling overly productive with the writing as of late. My brain is just like...nope. I spent most of the weekend, when I wasn't working, bingeing old eps of JAG off my ex's Amazon account. Because that show makes me happy. And darn it, I want to be happy!

Okay, whininess over. Now on to fic, because I have been a little bit productive despite everything. So if you're interested, here are my latest fic offerings:

List Under Cut )
brumeier: (Stefon)
So, the prompt fills for [ profile] comment_fic are generally speaking supposed to be bite sized. Most are posted right there on the comm. And for a good portion of the time my muse cooperates with keeping things short and sweet. (Which is how I posted my 100th prompt fill to AO3 this week, woo!) But sometimes the muse goes, "Ooh, let's draw this out!"

This is the situation I'm facing with an MCU prompt fill I've been working on. The thing is 4k words and climbing. Slow build? Why was that a good idea? ::rolls eyes::

But! I do have a finished thing at beta right now, so yay for that! And I have tentatively started rewrites on my very first co-authored fic, which I'm all kinds of nervous about. We'll see how that goes. [ profile] darkmoore may well be calling for my head by the time we're done.

I also have some posted fic to share, including one in a fandom I've never written in before. Very exciting! Without further ado:

Title: Best of Friends
Fandom: Simon & Simon
Characters: Rick, AJ
Warnings: brotherly shenanigans and protectiveness

Prompt: Simon & Simon, Rick+AJ, Rick learns his brother is gay or bi

Title: Because of You
Fandom: Stargate Atlantis
Series: Honky Tonk Blues
Pairing: McShep
Characters: John, Rodney, Madison, Jeannie, OC
Warnings: alcoholism, emotionally abusive parent-child relationship

Prompt: Stargate Multiverse, John Sheppard +/ Rodney McKay, Musician AU

In which John meets Rodney's mother under less than ideal circumstances, and proves that he is a man worthy of Rodney's affections.

Title: Perfectly Content
Fandom: Stargate Atlantis
Series: That McShep Boy
Pairing: McShep
Characters: AJ, Torren and a slew of OC child characters
Worth noting: asexual character

Prompt: any, any, conversations at midnight

In which teen AJ and his friends discuss Earth, relationships, and Atlantis.
brumeier: (Bucky Not Amused)
You know, it shouldn't be that hard to commit to a weekly post of fic links. Why can't I do it? ::shakes head::

So, I had to drop out of [ profile] intoabar. I don't feel good about it, but the fic was...not my best effort. I'm not giving up on it, but I honestly don't know how to fix it at this point.

But I have bigger fish to fry. Namely finishing my [ profile] sentinelbigbang. I've literally had forever to work on it, because of a lengthy extension on the original due date. But it seems that once again I'll be racing for the finish and hopefully skidding in just under the wire. I really need to stop signing up for challenges.

There's also a self-imposed deadline of tomorrow (which I will fail at meeting, just FYI) to finish a gift fic that I started for my friend's birthday last year. ::sighs::

Anyway, enough whining. Without further ado, I give you my latest batch of fic:

Under a Cut, Because Long )
brumeier: (Grumpy Cat)
Why is parenting so haaaaard? None of this was listed in the brochure when I signed up. My son is going through a bullying thing right now at his school. There's a new student in his class that is terrorizing the entire seventh grade, and some of the 8th and 9th graders as well. I'm of the opinion that this kid shouldn't be in regular ed, but he's not classified and the school is seemingly taking their time making anything happen. Meanwhile, my son called me from school yesterday in tears begging to come home and he's taking a mental health day today.

My boy scheduled an appointment with the school superintendent for tomorrow, where he will present his issues, and those of his fellow classmates - he collected written statements. A very mature and unexpected response. I'd love it if something good resulted from that meeting, but I have my doubts. Right now it's a very hostile school environment and I don't have many options available to me. I certainly can't keep him home every day, and I can't afford to move to a different school district.

It's a struggle. My ex is going to step in pretty soon, which will probably get him banned from the school. Sigh.

In writing news, I'm toiling away on my Winter In Hawaii fic which has been slow going. No matter how many eps of H50 I watch I just can't seem to get in that headspace. All my fic brain wants to do is write SGA, nothing but SGA, forever and ever SGA. Not helpful. I'd love to get it finished this weekend, so my beta has plenty of time to make it pretty, but we'll see how well that actually goes when there's also cookies to be made and house cleaning to be done and Christmas shopping to finish and Christmas movies to watch. Why did I think a December challenge was a good idea?

I'm almost done with my Christmas shopping! Unprecedented. But my budget being what it is, I got started back in October because it worked out that we got an extra paycheck that month from first job. I placed my final Amazon order on Tuesday, and now it's just a few odds and ends that I have to pick up out in town. I'm feeling good about the gifts I've purchased for everyone, most of which are already wrapped and under my tiny little tree.

Woefully behind on my Christmas movie viewing, though. Hard to fit that in with the writing I need to do, but I'm determined not to miss a single incredulity-straining moment of holiday fluff. ::grins::

I guess that's it for now, flisty friends. Thanks for listening to me whine. I hope everyone is having a really good December, and enjoying whatever holiday(s) you may be celebrating. ::hugs for all::
brumeier: (WTF - Sentinel)
First, the good things:

Weather permitting, looks like I'll be going to Florida for Christmas this year to visit with my mom and my grandparents. Leaving winter behind for a few days? Yes, please!

My son is super-incredible and I love him to pieces. Even though just as often this week he's been breaking my heart. (see below cut)

My family and friends have been awesome. I'm so lucky to have each and every one of them. Near, far, or online only, I always have someone to talk to.

I'm proud of myself, and how I'm handling things. (see below cut) I thought for sure I'd be curling up in a ball and staying that way for a week or so, but I've been keeping it together.

Now, the bad stuff:

Read more... )

Anyway, this is why I haven't been as much of a presence on here the last few days. Haven't done any writing, and very little socializing. Once things settle down a bit I'm hoping to get back to business as usual. Whatever that looks like these days.
brumeier: (Renfield)
I wrote words today. About 500 of them. And notes on the same fic, with the good wrap-up I'd thought up. Figured I'd finish it once I got home. Only to find that I can't open the file. Word tells me the file contains unreadable content. Same with my wordcount spreadsheet.


I'm hoping that when I get to work tomorrow I can reopen them on that computer. I don't know what I did wrong. Trying to close programs too quickly? Maybe my work computer hates my fic? I don't even know. I've tried opening it in other programs but it's no go. So now I sit and fume and have to wait for tomorrow. If it doesn't work I'll have lost about ten pages of fic, plus a whole half year's worth of wordcount.


Now I don't want to work on anything else. All the joy of words has been robbed from me. Sigh. Perhaps I'll do a scrapbook page and take my mind off things. And clearly I really need to get my ass in gear on a backup system. Sigh again.

ETA: I'm at work, and I held my breath and...opened my fic! Whatever went wrong last night, I've had no problems here at work. Putting a backup of everything on my EHD today, just in case. But no words were lost! ::happy dances:: Thanks, everyone, for the moral support and finger crossing!
brumeier: (McGarrett Muse)
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I wrote almost 1k words yesterday. They were pretty good ones, too. Saved to OneDrive, where all my fic now lives. But when I opened the document up this morning - gone. All those pretty new words, gone. Like they never were.

I know for a fact saving happened before I went to bed. So where did all my words go? Sigh. Now I have to try and recreate them, which is always annoying and impossible. What it really means is starting over.

As if writing isn't hard enough. Grr.

Out of curiosity, where do you all save your fics? I used to keep everything on a flash drive, but then sometimes I'd leave it at work, or fret about taking it on trips. So I put everything on OneDrive, which so far has been very kind to me. Now I'm not sure that's the best plan, if it's going to start eating things.

Can I get a do-over, please?
brumeier: (Renfield)
Finally here in February and the lofty goals I set up for myself last month have yet to be realized. It all seemed so easy back then, in the hazy, rum-soaked beginning of 2014. I was going to focus. I was going to finish my two posted WIPs. I was going to own the muse, instead of the other way around.

And what do I have to show for myself? Just endless frustration at the lack of focused writing I'm done. My Making the Best of It series is only two chapters away from being finished and I'm still stuck. I mean, I got past one block with it but now I'm worried that my fix isn't going to make it any good. Feh. And don't even get me started on the Vamp fic. That things got so much dust on it right now you can't even make out what it's supposed to be.

Face Plant Nick photo tumblr_inline_mo8zwqr5RE1qz4rgp.gif

I've gotten several bunnies in the interim, but even those can't get any momentum despite being shiny and new. At any one time I have at least 60 different fics I could be working on. Am I the only on who finds that number ridiculous? And with all that variety literally at my fingertips, I'm still getting nothing done.

Thank goodness for the Big Gay Novel, which is still partially in notebook form. I transcribed all day yesterday and that was both productive and soothing, because it didn't require any higher brain function.

And thank goodness for the Shoobies over at [ profile] ushobwri, who are so encouraging and helpful and willing to listen to me whine. ::grins:: I'm sure I'll get out of this writing funk soon. I just hope I don't put my head through a wall before that time gets here!
brumeier: (WTF - Sentinel)

I've let a lot go, as far as my Christmas holiday is concerned. The big, noisy, crazy holidays of my youth are just the past. Last year I gave up the big tree we normally get for a table-top version better suited to the new, smaller apartment. This year I will likely not be doing cookie baking and Christmas shopping with my friend Chippie. Let's face it, I'll be lucky to even get Christmas cards out.

Is it too much to expect that the people I share a home with will at least feign excitement about the coming holiday? My ten-year-old son has no interest in Christmas movies or Christmas songs. And he’s being very smug about his Christmas list – he just expects he’ll get what he asked for. I also have it on good authority that this is probably the last Santa year for him. I get the feeling he’s humoring me every time the Man in Red comes up.

So here I am, waiting until the nights my hubby is at work and my boy is in bed to watch Christmas movies or listen to festive holiday music. All alone. Is there anything sadder than that? It’s not doing much for my holiday spirit, I can tell you that much.

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If anyone wants to watch White Christmas or Christmas Vacation or any variation of the Christmas Carol, you know where to find me. I’ll be the one crying into my eggnog while singing along with the misfit toys.

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