brumeier: (Bucky Not Amused)
Has anyone seen my muse? He's fucked off again and taken all my words with him. Please keep an eye out for him. This is what he looks like:

(Yes, that's Toni Collette from United States of Tara.)

Sometimes I wish I could trade Buck in for Bucky (see icon), because I feel like Bucky would be more ruthlessly efficient when it comes to managing the words. Buck just hides somewhere with his booze and his porn and leave me high and dry. Sigh. This is a real problem, since I have challenges I wanted to fill this month and I just can't get anything going.

In family news, my brother finally found a place to live. Whew! His application at my place was denied, which I don't understand because there have been some sketchy people living there and whatever his other faults may be my bro doesn't peddle drugs. But he's super excited about his new place, and showed me some pics when he came over yesterday to borrow my vacuum. (Guess who's getting a vacuum for a housewarming gift?) Hopefully Saturday we can crack open the storage unit and he can take out whatever furniture he wants, help me get the rest of my stuff out, and then it'll just be the ex's crap in there. Goals!

My son had a huge anxiety attack on Sunday night, so I suspect we've cycled back around to that again. Every few months he goes through a bad patch of nightmares, anxiety and paranoia. His counselor would like him to have a full psychological eval, so I'm trying to get that set up. What do you tell a thirteen year old who is crying his eyes out because he's scared of dying and scared there's no happy afterlife? I was really earning my salary on Mother's Day this year, I can tell you that.

Overall things are going well. I've had light schedules at my deli job the last two weeks, which has been super nice. And the weather has been so nice the last two days. Sunshine! I'd almost forgotten what it looked like.

And I do have some fic to share since my last update. If you're interested! ::grins::

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brumeier: (Bunny)

I was hoping to have finished my WIP last month, but alas the muse has hit yet another stumbling block. But thanks to the Plot Bunny Dust-Off Challenge I made a lot of progress on it. I added 3720 new words to the fic, and finished up a couple of scenes. I'm inches away from the finish!

Thank you, [ profile] melagan, for motivating me to throw more words at my WIP! With any luck I can get it finished this month. ::fingers crossed::
brumeier: (SGA Meant To Be)
I finished my [ profile] sgareversebang fic, friends! And what a battle it was, too.

It all started with art by the lovely [ profile] velocitygrass. Isn't this gorgeous?

This beautiful art gave me a great fic idea. I was super stoked about it. But it was early days and I had other challenge fics to finish up first. Unfortunately, when it came time to actually buckle down and get moving...nope. No words for this story at all. Panic mode!

My muse, it seemed, was preoccupied with continuing the story I told in Cruisin'. Seriously preoccupied. So I consulted with my writing guru, [ profile] nagi_schwarz and she agreed that story would also match very well with the artwork. True fact: both stories involved our boys being soulmates, and charting their lives through the years.

I'm not completely abandoning my original idea, because if the words show up it'll still be cool. But I had a great time writing When the Time is Right. I did a ton of historical research, watched a hundred or so YouTube videos, and tried to remember how to use Photoshop Elements so I could throw some artwork in there. And, because I have zero personal management skills, I did this all in a month. (Please don't ask how many months I had to work on this. Suffice to say it was more than one.)

This was definitely a labor of love. If you want to check it out here's what you need to know:

Title: When the Time is Right
Author: [ profile] brumeier
Pairings: Rodney McKay/John Sheppard, Rodney McKay/Jennifer Keller
Rating: Teen and Up
Wordcount: 16,006
Warnings: period-typical homophobia, implied/reference drug use, all the pining

Summary: John and Rodney’s story starts in a ’56 Bel Air convertible and spans three decades of cultural turmoil, personal achievement, and loss. Will the timing ever be right for them to be together?
brumeier: (Monster Fest)
It's October on the You Should Be Writing [ profile] ushobwri comm, which means:

Monster Fest Banner photo Monster Fest Banner.jpg

If you haven't joined our group, now would be an excellent time! We're going to sharing the monster love all month with recs and fics and gushing over our fave creepy creatures.

And if that's not exciting enough, we'll be holding our annual Miserable Fucks November Social. This means daily wordcounts, daily support for all your writing woes, and topical topics in abundance! ::grins::

So come on over the comm! All you need to bring is your sense of humor, a box of tissues, and your favorite alcoholic beverage!
brumeier: (SGA Meant To Be)
This writing meme comes courtesy of [ profile] firesign10, who tagged me. The gist: share seven lines from the seventh page of your WIP. And then tag seven other writers to do the same.

I chose one of my legion of SGA WIPs. So here you go:

They came when Rodney was collecting dirty clothes to take to the Laundromat and Lily was looking through her picture books, banging on the door with demands for entry.

“Dr. McKay, open up or we will break down this door!”

Lily came on the run, barefoot, bag already slung over her shoulder and eyes wide with fear. Rodney scooped her up and made for the panic room. It had started life as a laundry alcove but Rodney had reinforced the door and the inside walls. As soon as they were inside he sealed the room; it wouldn’t hold indefinitely, but all he needed was a minute to make his getaway.

“Up you go, sweetheart.”

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brumeier: (Shaka Steve)
My last personal post was full of gloom, so it's time to give a shout-out to the good stuff that's happening because there's lots of that too. Bring on the positivity!

  • I'm a writing fool! [ profile] ushobwri is doing Monster Fest this month, which means each week we're focusing on a different monster type. And I've taken it upon myself to write a fic for each monster group. I've got three done, one almost done and one left to go. Woot! Plus I got a food porn bunny for SGA that's trying to eat my brain but I'm beating it back for now. Why? See below!

  • I received my [ profile] intoabar pairing. Rodney McKay (SGA) walks into a bar and meets Jesse Ramirez (Roswell). Been laying out the timeline and next will be watching the SG1 Redemption two-part ep and some random season three Roswell eps to get a feel of where those characters are at that particular point of their lives. Due in November.

  • I received my [ profile] sga_santa assignment and it's so utterly perfect for me. The only problem was deciding which fic idea to use. Now that I have that narrowed down I've been brainstorming plot points. That one is due in December.

  • On the personal front things are going well for me and my boy. J is still calling every night to talk to him, and we spent a very nice couple of hours all together on Sunday. J helped brainstorm plot ideas with me and that was a huge help.

  • One of my coworkers said this morning that I look like I've been losing weight. Yay! I can't imagine I really am - my clothes all fit the same and I'm not doing anything to facilitate weight loss, but I'll take it. ::grins::

So things are coming along. I'm beating back the blue funk and getting my writing groove on. Thanks to all my flist peeps for the continued support and happy vibes that you keep sending my way. I LOVE YOU ALL!
brumeier: (McGarrett Muse)
Fuck My Life photo giphy.gif

I wrote almost 1k words yesterday. They were pretty good ones, too. Saved to OneDrive, where all my fic now lives. But when I opened the document up this morning - gone. All those pretty new words, gone. Like they never were.

I know for a fact saving happened before I went to bed. So where did all my words go? Sigh. Now I have to try and recreate them, which is always annoying and impossible. What it really means is starting over.

As if writing isn't hard enough. Grr.

Out of curiosity, where do you all save your fics? I used to keep everything on a flash drive, but then sometimes I'd leave it at work, or fret about taking it on trips. So I put everything on OneDrive, which so far has been very kind to me. Now I'm not sure that's the best plan, if it's going to start eating things.

Can I get a do-over, please?
brumeier: (Stefon)
So, thanks to [ profile] taste_is_sweet's meddling suggestion, I signed up for my very first bingo at [ profile] hc_bingo. I'm very nervous, but when I looked at my card I was excited to see that I already have some bunnies I can apply to joined squares. Yay! Now to write them. LOL!

Here's my bingo card, if you're curious to see what I ended up with:

My hc_bingo card )
brumeier: (Sparkly and Invalid)
And now, the humble semicolon:


As someone who graduated college with a degree in English I have long understood the purpose of the semicolon. Namely, to join two related sentences in place of a comma and a conjunction. Microsoft Word especially seems to love the semicolon, regularly suggesting that I use one.

And then [ profile] taste_is_sweet did beta work for me (the first time I ever used one) on a fic I wrote last winter for [ profile] sga_santa and got the following note: Every time you use a semicolon a fairy dies.

I had no idea! And for all subsequent fics I've been doing my best not to use them, since I certainly don't want to kill any fairies, but sometimes it feels unavoidable.

Cut to this morning, when I was reading through the latest issue of EW Magazine and the following Kurt Vonnegut quote jumped right out at me: Do not use semicolons. They are transvestite hermaphrodites representing nothing. All they do is show you've been to college.

Huh. So why do we even have semicolons?

On the other side of things is George Bernard Shaw, another noteworthy writer whose works I read in school. He says this: Not using semicolons is a symptom of mental defectiveness, probably induced by camp life.

Clearly this is a bitter debate I had no idea even existed. The darkside of English grammar. And now whenever I use a semicolon I feel a mixture of guilt and subversiveness.

Power to the semicolon!

brumeier: (Stefon)

It doesn't happen often, but yesterday I kept myself off the laptop for a big chunk of the day. In fact, I offered it up willingly to [ profile] bikernurse for the viewing of online streaming of our shows so we could start getting caught up before the end of the season.

For the first time in a long time I hauled out one of my notebooks, got out the lap desk, and wrote longhand. I didn't choose one of my WIPs, for reasons I'm not quite sure about myself, but instead wrote something completely new in an SGA 'verse I'd created for [ profile] sga_santa last December.

There's something immensely satisfying about filling up notebook pages with writing. Maybe because it's more tangible than a Word document. Of course, that high doesn't last through the transcribing process because the page count halves by the time it's all typed up so I try to enjoy it while I can.

Clearly I need to disengage from the interwebs more often. Writing on the laptop can be good, but I don't get a lot done at any one time because I'm e-mailing, chatting, checking random things on Facebook or Pinterest or YouTube, or playing Poppit. Although next time I unplug I'll let my friends know first so they don't think I was abducted by aliens, since I'm normally an online presence most of the day. (Sorry, Sharon and Becc!)

Today's mission: type up the fic I wrote yesterday and then contemplate what else needs to be written long hand. Big Gay Novel, I'm lookin' at you!
brumeier: (Writer's Block)
February at [ profile] ushobwri was all about picking a WIP and making major headway on it. I should have been working on my Sentinel vamp fic, which was my intention. Instead I found myself inspired by an SGA/Labyrinth movie fusion. I got it almost completely written in February, so that was successful. And now it's finished and posted on AO3! Yay!

It's called Within You. Roughly 23k words that follow Rodney's journey through the Labyrinth to save his sister.

Within You photo WithinYou.jpg

Writing movie fusions is so fun, because there's already a plot structure to work with. Some good dialogue too, if you can make it work with the particular characters you're throwing into the storyline. The best part is switching things up to fit both the movie and the fandom that's being fused to it.

Funny thing is, despite the other fandoms I write for, the only movie fusion ideas I get are for SGA. I wonder why that is. Hmmm.

More )
brumeier: (Renfield)
Finally here in February and the lofty goals I set up for myself last month have yet to be realized. It all seemed so easy back then, in the hazy, rum-soaked beginning of 2014. I was going to focus. I was going to finish my two posted WIPs. I was going to own the muse, instead of the other way around.

And what do I have to show for myself? Just endless frustration at the lack of focused writing I'm done. My Making the Best of It series is only two chapters away from being finished and I'm still stuck. I mean, I got past one block with it but now I'm worried that my fix isn't going to make it any good. Feh. And don't even get me started on the Vamp fic. That things got so much dust on it right now you can't even make out what it's supposed to be.

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I've gotten several bunnies in the interim, but even those can't get any momentum despite being shiny and new. At any one time I have at least 60 different fics I could be working on. Am I the only on who finds that number ridiculous? And with all that variety literally at my fingertips, I'm still getting nothing done.

Thank goodness for the Big Gay Novel, which is still partially in notebook form. I transcribed all day yesterday and that was both productive and soothing, because it didn't require any higher brain function.

And thank goodness for the Shoobies over at [ profile] ushobwri, who are so encouraging and helpful and willing to listen to me whine. ::grins:: I'm sure I'll get out of this writing funk soon. I just hope I don't put my head through a wall before that time gets here!
brumeier: (Ho Frickin Ho)
I'm in a Christmas frame of mind, it seems. Wrote a silly little holiday fic for SGA which you can find on AO3 and it's called Promises Kept. I know I was mean to Rodney, but it was for the good of the fic and I promise...happy ending! LOL!

I have one more Christmas fic in the works, but I'm not sure I'll get that done before the end of the month. I'll try, though!
brumeier: (H50)
It only took me a year, but I finally finished my Hawaii Five-0 fluffy Christmas fic. Hopefully worth the wait. If not...better late than never? ::grins::

You can find it here on AO3. Hopefully the link works, I've been having some trouble with that today.

The title of this fic is taken from the Relient K song of the same name, which inspired it. I love this song, and it fits Steve and Danny so well I think. Couldn't find an official video, but here's the song on YouTube:

brumeier: (Amputations)

So, November is over and so is [ profile] more ways than one. On our last check-in day we found out that the community was being disbanded. Nooo! Very sad news. It was my first year participating and it was so much more than I thought it would be.

In an effort to keep the vibe going, I started my own writing community, You Should Be Writing [ profile] ushobwri, to help keep myself and the other wonderful friends I'd made motivated. Writing is hard. So hard! And having people to talk to about the process, or whine as the case may be, can be incredibly helpful.

It was very strange writing today and not keeping track of my word count. Or having a place to go and chit chat with about my daily progress. I'd gotten used to that. So thanks, WriSo, for helping motivate me this past month and introducing me to such a wonderful community of writers. ::tips hat::

And because I'm incredibly anal retentive about some things, I did keep track of the numbers. So here's what I did at WriSo this month:

Total new words: 27,361
Total transcribed words: 3,665
Total notebook pages: 40.5
Total number of fics worked on: 15
brumeier: (Me)
I've been contemplating my productivity this week. [ profile] wrisomifu has been helping me with that a bit, encouraging me to have a word count or writing experience to share each and every day. Even so, I'm incredibly scattered, and I have been for a while. I've got words for this fic, words for that one...sprinkling them around and ensuring nothing gets finished.

I checked back to two years ago on my Oh Life journal. Back then, in addition to my full time job (which I still have), my marriage (which I still have), and my parenthood duties (which I still have), I was writing nearly every day and posting with great frequency. Back then I could stick with a WIP and actually get it finished in a timely fashion.

Back then, in the Productive Times, I was also digital scrapping. So not only was I creating semi-artistic scrapbook pages but I was also part of an online creative team which meant I had regular scrappy assignments and articles to write. And I did! I did all of that! And I like to think I did it well. I certainly had fun doing layouts like this one:

I'm the Doctor

So what happened? Well, we moved from a huge, airy apartment to a tiny, cramped one. I have no place to escape my family when I need to. I stopped scrapbooking over a year and a half ago, and dropped out of the creative team due to scrappy burnout.

Does this mean that I need to be busier? That I need to fill my time with more than writing and reading fics? I often feel I don't have enough time in the day to get anything done, but that's not true. What's the right formula? How can I regain my focus and my writing output?
brumeier: (Default)
Columbus Day weekend my muse and I were tight. I wrote non-stop for days. It was awesome!

Now, though, my muse has seemingly taken himself away on holiday and left me in the lurch. I can't write anything to save my life. My WIPs are languishing. My novel is getting dusty. My slashy boys are wondering where I am and when I'm going to finish telling their stories. It's not good.

I need to find a way to lure him back. At least long enough to get something finished. I have deadlines! I have obligations! I have no idea where all the words went! ::cries::
brumeier: (Default)
In my continued quest this year to branch out and try new things, I've just joined the SGA Secret Santa ([ profile] sga_santa) group here on LJ. Which means I'll be writing a story for a complete stranger based on their criteria. I'm already nervous about it, LOL! But excited by the challenge as well.

This is my first time participating in a fic community, besides one lived entirely through fic comments. So I guess that's two new things in one fell swoop. Go me! LOL!

Thanks to [ profile] taste_is_sweet for bullying encouraging me to do all these new writerly things. (She's the one you can blame when things go horribly, horribly wrong.) ::grins::
brumeier: (Default)
It wasn't that long ago that I had no idea what slash even was. My first tentative steps into fan fiction started with Trixie Belden fics, where I was a reader only. Then I discovered Syfy's Alice and started reading those fics. And I thought...hmmm. I could do that.

The first fics I ever wrote were Hatter and Alice fics. And the Alice community at was so welcoming and wonderful and active. I got good reviews and more good reviews, and just kept on writing. Through the Alice fics I met the very funny smiles2go, who was also writing in that fandom. She's the one who steered me in the direction of slash.

Smiles is the one who introduced me to the Sentinel fandom, the NCIS fandom, and the Stargate Atlantis fandom. And those fandoms are rife with slash. Turns out...I liked it! Something about male/male relationships really spoke to me. So I branched out, leaving poor Hatter and Alice behind to write John/Rodney, Jim/Blair, DiNozzo/Gibbs and Steve/Danny (I got into Hawaii Five-0 all on my own, LOL!)

The hardest thing about writing slash, for me, is feeling awkward when people ask me about it. It's not something I generally offer up. I'm so lucky that my hubby, who doesn't understand why I have to gay up perfectly good characters, puts up with me and even helps me when I get stuck on plot points.

Now that I'm thinking about trying to get a gay romance published, all I can think is - what am I going to tell my grandparents? LOL! My mom's cool with it, and probably would be even if she wasn't a lesbian. But if my grandparents find out I published something I know my grandma is going to want to read it. Yikes!

Of course, maybe no-one will want to publish my gay romance and all this worry will be for naught. Just have to wait and see I guess.
brumeier: (Default)
One of the best ways to jump start my writing is to either take a shower or wash dishes. Most days there are words in the water. If there isn't water available, standing in front of a big paper shredder with stacks and stacks of documents to shred works well too.

In the shower this morning I had so much dialogue! Of course, then the tricky part is getting it all written down before it's forgotten.

Here's my dream: I have a big, deep whirlpool tub that I can sit in regularly with a handy digital recorder to capture all my water-inspired thoughts. Chocolates would be optional. Of course, in this fantasy I don't have to hold down a menial job and can devote all my time to writing.

It's good to have a dream. Until then, at least I have the shower.

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