brumeier: (Renfield)
I'm in a blue funk today, friends, so no gratitude post is forthcoming.

I was doing so well, too. Feeling all empowered and like I was handling this separation like a real grown-up. I knew it couldn't last.

My boy was looking for something in the cloud last night and I ended up spending a long time looking at old family pics. Can't help wondering what J was thinking about when we took them, or when he bought me all those lovely cards for our anniversary, or when I showed him scrapbook pages I made like this one:

Pic Below )
Feel like our whole relationship was a big lie.

I could really use some cheering up, if anyone has some funny to share with me!
brumeier: (cheers)
It's official, friends. J came to my place of business today and we signed and had notarized our Separation Agreement. Less than a month after I kicked him out we are officially separated. And I have no regrets whatsoever. Just relief.

I'll say this, though. J has been behaving very well. There's been no arguing, no demands, no vitriol spewed all over Facebook. I wrote up the agreement, he reviewed it and asked for two changes that I didn't mind making. Also, he calls my boy every night without fail, and his deposits are still coming in every Friday when he gets paid. I think we might be doing separated far better than we did married.

Attention any millionaires (or billionaires, I'm not picky) who are interested in a platonic sugar daddy scenario: I am now available. ::grins::
brumeier: (WTF - Sentinel)
First, the good things:

Weather permitting, looks like I'll be going to Florida for Christmas this year to visit with my mom and my grandparents. Leaving winter behind for a few days? Yes, please!

My son is super-incredible and I love him to pieces. Even though just as often this week he's been breaking my heart. (see below cut)

My family and friends have been awesome. I'm so lucky to have each and every one of them. Near, far, or online only, I always have someone to talk to.

I'm proud of myself, and how I'm handling things. (see below cut) I thought for sure I'd be curling up in a ball and staying that way for a week or so, but I've been keeping it together.

Now, the bad stuff:

Read more... )

Anyway, this is why I haven't been as much of a presence on here the last few days. Haven't done any writing, and very little socializing. Once things settle down a bit I'm hoping to get back to business as usual. Whatever that looks like these days.
brumeier: (cheers)
I know it's only day two, but 2014 is already off to a good start. The [ profile] ushobwri group was back in full form yesterday and I'm already looking forward to tomorrow's show-and-tell day because of all the awesome snippets I'll get to read. Plus, I got to post my two [ profile] sga_santa fics for gen pop. You can find both Crossroads and Through the Gate (chapter 11 - One Christmas Night) over on AO3 if you've a mind to.

So, I have plenty of writerly and regular resolutions for myself this year. Some of them might even come to fruition! What I didn't realize was that my hubby needed a resolution of his own. See, he's written a few fan fic things, which relied heavily on my assistance because he dictates all his fics into a digi recorder. I transcribe them, edit them and make them pretty. ::grins:: And I know he has a head full of really interesting bunnies for other fics.

What I didn't know was that he wasn't doing anything with his bunnies because he figured I was too busy with all my writing projects to help him. Oh, no! His fics generally run short, so it's certainly no hardship to help him get them ready for posting. I feel bad that he was waiting on me, even if I didn't know it.

Today we made a date to get all of his bunnies down on paper - in the very cute little Doctor Who notebook I got him for Christmas - so that he can maybe pick one to start developing into a fic. He's even expressed interest in having me set him up here on LJ and maybe, possibly, joining the [ profile] ushobwri writing group. Yay!

And so, one of my brand new resolutions is to help my hubby get some confidence in his writing and help him get some of it finished and posted. I hope I'm up to the challenge!

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